...a certain kind of misery

 

There’s a certain kind of misery that nobody ever tells you about—the kind that hides in the moments that are supposed to be good. It’s that heavy, silent loneliness that sneaks in when you’re standing in a room full of people who care about you, and yet somehow, you still feel completely invisible. It’s the disappointment that sinks in when you’re finally lying down at night, and the day didn’t turn out how you’d hoped, and you wonder if it ever will. It’s the way the world keeps moving, even when you’re standing still, trying so hard to keep it all together, yet feeling like you’re breaking bit by bit.

People don’t talk about this side of life because it’s hard to admit how many times you’ve felt left behind or unworthy or just plain tired. We tuck away those messy feelings because we think we’re supposed to keep going, stay grateful, and never admit that sometimes life feels like more than we can carry. It’s an ache in your chest that no one sees and a kind of fatigue that goes so far beyond sleep.

But the truth is, this misery doesn’t mean we’re failing at life. It doesn’t mean we’re weak or ungrateful or that there’s something wrong with us. Sometimes, it’s just part of being human. You feel too deeply, you love too much, you keep hoping despite every reason not to. And maybe that’s where the beauty lives—in the fact that, even when life feels dark and endless, we hold out for the smallest flicker of light. We fight our way through days that no one would understand if they tried. And somehow, through all that ache, we make it through.

One day, that light will be there, shining brighter than all the shadows that have ever surrounded you. And you’ll see that every single tear, every lonely moment, every inch of that heaviness was part of the story that makes you… you. And one day, you’ll tell someone else who’s struggling, “I know. I’ve been there too. And there is another side.”

There is always another side. And I swear to you—it’s worth holding on for.

Source: Facebook - Ben Fisher

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